An Update

This blog is not exactly serving the purpose that I know some people want and need. If you are checking here to see how Lou is doing....to see what Lou is doing...to see how we are doing...you're not really going to get that. So I'm afraid I am leaving alot of you in the dark because this has become my way of communicating with you....and this is NOT about how Lou is doing, it's NOT about what Lou is doing, and it's NOT about how we are doing...it's about observations and feelings, with some learnings thrown in. That said, periodically I will post an update, if nothing more than to give myself a break from trying to always have something meaningful to say! Nothing much has changed in the last month or so. Lou is no better or worse then he was a month ago it seems to me. A month ago he had an MRI that showed some progression, but not "rampant" as his doctor said. I don't see many changes that would indicate it IS rampant at this point, but what do I know? We have some good days, some not so good days, some wonderful moments, and some not so wonderful moments. All to be expected. The boys are doing quite well, all things considered, or at least I think they are. Drew will continue working at the Mayor's office for the summer, full time (yay!), and he is doing well at school. He has matured so much over the last year or so.....he's truly a man now, shouldering much responsibility and doing it well. Everytime I see him, my heart just swells. Damon is doing better, I think...I hope, I pray. I do not think he is having headaches as frequently as he was, though I think one started yesterday at dinner when the conversation turned to Damon's summer plans and it all had to be explained again for Lou...sigh.....but Damon has had some good news to keep him going ... he was named co-editor of the newspaper for next year (the AWARD WINNING high school newspaper that is!), he won a prestigious award for his poetry, and he is off to study at USC this summer.....all good things. Damon is a great comfort to me...steady and calm, still waters that run very deep. God really knew what He was doing in giving me sons.....THESE sons...... My mom is here for two weeks...it is great having her here but each day I am reminded of the passage of time....she is more forgetful and not as strong as the last time I saw her. It worries me. And, I am so sad that I cannot be there for her as I should be.....I have someone else to "be there" for.....talk about being "sandwiched"...yes, I am. I'm torn between the people I love the most....it truly pains me..... That's about it for us. Tomorrow I will try to think of something pithy to write.....one can't be pithy ALL the time , after all! It's now been 19 months since Lou's diagnosis.....tomorrow is another day, God willing.....