Party Time

Tonight I attended a fund raiser for the brain tumor center at Northwestern, where Lou is being treated (or should I say, WAS being treated). Lou's agency is becoming involved in this cause by working on a brochure, and we wanted to support the fund raiser...good cause of course! Several folks from the office came, Drew and his date, and myself. It was a great party. But it was the first time I've been to such a function without Lou. And we go to ALOT of these types of things. I felt like I was missing an appendage. I'm so used to being arm and arm with Lou at things like this. I felt so alone at times, so completely alone, in this large crowd of partying people. And I wanted to say to so many of them..."hey, my husband is sitting at home with a brain tumor. You guys are all so lucky to be here dancing away......do you KNOW that" ????? I didn't stay til the end. I was happy to come home to my buddy....my dear, sweet buddy, who said "thank you for making it a nice day" to me, as he went to bed......how can he say this?? How could it have possibly been a nice day for him??? It was NOT a nice day at all for him....he fell once, was sad, and slept half the day....but he FEELS it was a nice day....I'll take it. I'll take it over parties and dancing.....it's enough...for now, it is enough..... Goodnight, all.