My Sweet Pea

I'm trying not to only write about my sadness. I'm trying not to only write about missing Lou. In fact, I'm thinking about moving on from this blog sometime fairly soon. It seems to repeat itself with some regularity. It gets old, doesn't it? Even my best friends have stopped reading it. Who can blame them. So today....not about Lou. Not about me. It's about my darling Sweet Pea. She's my now 5 year old great niece. She turned five earlier this week. She's a very special child. Not just because she is my great niece. But because she is so joyful, so smart, so cute, so sweet. She just oozes goodness, all that is good. When Lou was sick , she would climb right in bed with him and talk to him, bring him his pills. She was never frightened by any of it. And, they were with us the day he died. I think he was waiting for her to leave, he left us twenty minutes after she went home. She's precious. I'm very close to her. We have a special bond I think. Having not had girls, I was besotted the moment she was born, and have been ever since. I'm so lucky she is in my life. She, and now her little sister. They are the best. But, anyway, the reason I write of her today..."Conversation with Anna"..... Just before her big birthday , I said to her, "I just don't think I can LET you turn five". "But you HAVE to Auntie". "Oh, I just don't think I can. I just want you to stay four," I say. "But Auntie, I HAVE to turn five" she says. "Oh, I just don't know......".....some back and forth ensues, .and then..."Don't worry, Auntie, I'll still be your Sweet Pea when I am five." Now you know why I'm besotted. She's a gift.