Busy Is Good

I've been a busy girl this weekend. I've come to the conclusion, busy is good. Busy is better, for me. Of course, I CAN'T be busy doing the things I SHOULD be doing. I PREFER to be busy with things like going to the movies, playing with my darling great nieces, talking on the phone, staying up til all hours reading, listening to favorite music (loudly), talking to my brain tumor buddies online, going away, etc. In other words, busy IGNORING what faces me each day. Too busy to see all the things that still need to get done. The Lou things. All the Lou things that surround me. It's almost six months now. His closet and drawers are still filled with all his things. Some people get right at all this stuff. Not me. I prefer to ignore it. Thinking that somehow, it will go away, I guess. It's so hard to deal with it. To face it. It's so much easier to ignore it. Or maybe ignoring it makes me think it didn't really happen. Someday, I'll realize that it is not going to go away. Someday, I will realize this is my life, now. Until then, I think I'll just be busy. Busy acting like I am living. Busy trying to find my way. Busy being lost. IS busy good? I wonder, now that I put it that way. I wonder. What IS good.......10,000+ hits here, now THAT is GOOD! I just noticed that today. THANK YOU, everyone, for checking in. For sticking with me. For your support and encouragement. For being out there. Thank you. Happy Sunday.