What helps, what doesn't

Comments have dwindled a bit of late. That's understandable. Who the heck really wants to hear all this anyway? I can sort of figure it out: l.) it's more interesting to read about dealing with the process of dying from a brain tumor vs. the AFTER process, 2) it's become too depressing to read this day in and day out (be honest now folks, this is what my son says...3.) you all think it's "over" now and life should return to normal (sooooo NOT the case but I can see why people might think that), 4.) all of the above. So my friends, which is it? Lest you think I am living in a complete fog and depression, I have this to offer. SOME things make me happy. SOME things put me in a good mood. And now I am trying harder to surround myself with those things, because it helps. Life is not all bad. Not at all. Here ya go. Sorry, I sure wish I knew how to space these things so it's more readable, is that what HTML is?? Things that can help when you are grieving: l. Hugging your sons. 2. Hugging your kitties. 3. Hugging your adorable great nieces. 4. Hugging the pillow of your beloved. 5. Quad venti skim lattes with no foam, especially when the ladies at the coffee place charge you for a triple, then I overtip and end up spending even more, oh well. 6. Downloading happy tunes and playing them at maximum volume. I've just discovered itunes, a little behind, i know. Can't wait to see THAT bill. I'm reverting back..it's the Cars, Sting, Tom Petty, Grateful Dead, all that good old stuff. It's not music to nurse a brain tumor by. That's why it's so helpful. 7. Movies. Best night out....movies with girlfriends. Escapism. Even better when cocktails are involved afterwards. 8. Fresh air. Sunshine, when there is some. 9. Immersing myself in a good book. Not good when it keeps you up until 4 am however. 10. Talking on the phone. Especially AFTER I've had the quad venti skim latte. Things that do NOT help when you are grieving: 1. Listening to moody music, no matter how much you might love it. 2. Long walks by yourself. 3. Being the only single person in a large group of couples. 4. The Cardinals winning the World Series. 5. Standing at the kitchen counter and eating. Especially anything salty and crunchy that comes in a plastic bag that won't stay shut so you may as well finish it. 6. Forgetting to pay the bills. 7. People who expect too much too soon from you. Expecting too much too soon from yourself. 8. The W word. Widow. There HAS to be something else, there HAS to be. 9. Wearing black. It doesn't help, except maybe for Halloween, which, ironically, is the two month anniversary..... 10. Spending too much time on the computer. Speaking of which, time to go get some fresh air.